xspikeblackx

Tue, 31 May 2005 16:36:40 GMT

wow im bored as hell in earth science...this weekend was really fun...i got drunk as hell at my friend roxie(she is so cool and nice) she was having a party and i knew like no one but it didnt really matter cause i get really open and will talk openly after a few...i loved it...thanks

pussies

Wed, 25 May 2005 22:52:08 GMT

ok i get a random IM and it say if i go to any shows this weekend something bad will happen, and that my emo friends and i are going to to get the shit beat out of us...well just letting everyone know i have given up on life and really dont care what happens to me, so while im at the show ill have a knife on me and i am ready to kill someone, so incase you want to fuck with me im ready to go to jail, get the chair, and burn in hell with you right next to me...so dont fuck with a crazy fucker who isnt afraid of dieing anymore...just a warning

omg

Fri, 20 May 2005 02:55:28 GMT

TODAY WAS THE PERFECT DAY!

its been a long time

Thu, 19 May 2005 16:43:54 GMT

so yea its been a long time since i wrote in here...i got a hair cut...i really dont like it, but it should look good in like 2 weeks...well yelling at parents is always fun, im getting a job so it doesnt really matter what they say...over summer im going to get the front of my hair streaked and a lip ring...im hoping to get a car too...im hoping by doing all this ill be happy...=/

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 05:00:31 GMT

I GIVE UP...~~ON EVERYTHING~~

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 01:19:51 GMT

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT....
my eyes?
my hair?
my laugh?
my personality?
my sense of humor?
my style?
my taste of music?

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF....
I said hi?
I told you a secret?
I asked you to hangout?
I asked you on a date?
I kissed you?
I held your hand?
I died?
I killed someone?
I wrote a song about you?
I asked you for help?
I needed a shoulder to cry on?

DO YOU THINK I'M...
a good person?
trustworthy?
a good friend?
someone fun to be around?
good at giving hugs?
a good musician?
selfish?
an asshole?
loving?
funny? sweet?

what is one thing you like about me.

what is one thing you dis-like about me.

what do you think of me as? (pick a #)

1.friend

2. best friend

3. enimie

4.dork

5. crush

6.lover

do it if you love or hate me

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 03:46:13 GMT

THE WRESTLING TEAM AND I MOVED A VAN...it was blocking the bus for us to get out so we moved it lol it was the coolest!!!

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 06:41:12 GMT

im going to get to see the coolest girl in the world "diana" and her best friend mona tomorrow at woodfield tomorrow...GG

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 05:33:28 GMT

ive hit a new low...

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 20:04:27 GMT

me...lip ring...what do you think?

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 03:54:57 GMT

I Suck...but you mostlikely already know that...

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 17:34:06 GMT

OMG...last night was so much fun!!! I finally got to meet the girl of my dreams...she is so much prettier in person...at first it was kind of weird but as the night went on things got better...i picked her up at her house in rosemont the we went to the mall the hip, its the worst mall ever so we just walked around trying to get used to eachother, then she was like want to see a movie...so we when to the show, how lucky oceans 12 just started and we had never seen it, we talked durning like the whole movie lol...i put my arm around her once the movie started, but she looked at me weird so i started to take it back but she grabbed it and put it back on her shoulder...lol...during the movie we admited that we liked eachother...here is the catch she has a boyfriend but she is completely bored with him and want to get rid of him but doesnt want to hurt him...im like ill hurt him for you, jk...lol...but yea she didnt really tell her mom that she was going out with me so by the end of the movie she had 21 missed calls...then her dad was trying to call her(thats BAD) she called her mom, and said that she said that she was going out...I hope she isnt in too much troble...and for me my dad wanted me to stay home and study, i yelled at him and left, lets just say we are not on best turms...but all and all i would do it all over again...

i wish my mom was home she understands me but ovb. she has to be out of town...

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 20:55:39 GMT

HAPPY BLACK DAY!!!

Fri, 14 Jan 2005 02:11:15 GMT

The girl im falling for...

she is the one that makes my day = ) <3

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 04:43:55 GMT

i dont think i can laugh ever again...im making myself sick from feeling like shit all the time...i cant remember the last time that i was even happy...if you see me in school useally i have on a fake smile just so you wont ask what is wrong...just to let you know i know that you talk behind my back, why cant you just say that shit to my face. if you dont like me let me know i wont get mad i just wont talk to you anymore, which you would want anyways...i just cant take any of this shit anymore...im sorry if you have to deal with me...i wish i wasnt around so i could just stay out of every thing...letting me go shouldnt be hard since you didnt want me in the first place...

goodbye

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 01:55:56 GMT

I FUCKING HATE HOMEWORK!!!

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 01:41:48 GMT

wow...i just told my mom that i used to take pain killers and that i drink sometimes...she actually was ok...it was weird...

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 17:38:14 GMT

im in science and bored as hell but im in a good mood for the first time in a while. =P

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:45:22 GMT

resolutions
1. no more masterbating for a while like 3 months
2. fine someone that truely likes me(not another summer)
3. stay out of peoples lives that dont want me there

Well thats all i got...maybe ill get more...

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:19:25 GMT

stole it from paul
me = bored

[x] been drunk/tipsy
[ ] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] had a three-some.
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[x] made out with a stranger.
[x] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square
[x] went on a blind date. ?
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ] been to europe.
[ ] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling.
[x] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating
[ ] cheated on a bf/gf
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had a quinceañera.
[x] had a car.
[x] drove.

----do you----
[ ] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[x]listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[x] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x]play an instrument.
[ ] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[ ]wear black eyeliner
[ ] like the color blue.
[ ] like the color yellow.
[ ] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[ ] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[x] medium length
[x] have a cell phone.
[x] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager

// Ver. 1

--Name: Steven
--Birthdate: 9 - 16 - 88
--Birthplace: Elk Grove
--Current Location: Elk Grove
--Eye color: Brown
--Hair color: Black
--Height: 6'1''
--Righty or Lefty: righty
--Zodiac Sign: ???
--Innie or Outtie: Innie

// Ver. 2 - Describe

--Your Heritage: german, polish
--The Shoes You Wore Today: van

--Your Weakness: everything

--Your Fears: so many things
--Your Perfect Pizza : mama Ks
--One thing You'd Like to Achieve: Get a girl that loves me for me

// Ver.3

--What is your most overused phrase online?: lol
--Your first thoughts waking up: where am i
--The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: boobs
--Your best physical features: um...i dont have any i suck
--Your bedtime: when im sleepy
--Your Most Missed Memory: hanging out with my first love

// Ver.4

--Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
--McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
--Single or Group Dates: both are good
--Adidas or Nike: nike
--Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
--Cappucino or coffee: coffee
--Boxers or Briefs: boxers

// Ver.5

--Do you smoke?: nope
--Cuss?: fuck yea
--Sing Well?: ok
--Do you think you've been in love?: i know i have
--Liked High School?: it sucks
--Want to get married?: Yes
--Type with fingers on the right keys: yes
--Get motion sickness: no
--Think you're attractive: im super ulgy
--Think you're a health freak: no either i eat really bad or dont eat
--Get along with parents: NO!
--Like Thunderstorms: no but i like rain

// Ver.6 - in the past month, did/have you:

--Consumed Alchohol: yes
--Have Sex: yes, 4 wonderful times
--Made Out: yes
--Gone On Date: yea
--Go To the Mall: often
--Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yea im fat
--Eaten Sushi: nope
--Gone Skating: yup
--Made Homemade cookies: yes, they were good
--Been in Love: yes
--Gone Skinny Dipping: No
--Dyed your hair: my real color is brown
--Stolen Anything: yea, but nothing big

// Ver.7

--Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: Yea
--Been trashed or completely intoxicated: not really
--Been caught "doing something"?: no but almost
--Been Called a "Tease": yea, you fuckers

// Ver.8

--Age you hope to be married?: 30? idk
--Numbers and Names of Children?: one boy one girl
--Describe your dream wedding: whatever she wants, i got money

--How do you want to die?: in my dreams, and before i wake up in pain

--Where do you want to go to college: nothern
--What do you want to be when you grow up?: i really dont know yet
--most like to visit?: i like where i am

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 05:55:29 GMT

happy new year

this year cant be worst than the last one...i hope...

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 06:44:48 GMT

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

i really dont like christmas...everthing seems to fall apart...people breake up because they find out the person that they are with isnt worth the present...you get stuff that you really dont want but you still have to put on a happy face...i really dont even get anything because i get what i want when i ask for it...always having to deal with people being happy, there isnt that much to be happy about...the fucking holiday isnt even real, no one really knows when jessus was born, and even if we did we wouldnt know the exact day because they used a luner calender, there is no reason for anything speciel to happen...i know you most likely dont like me and even if you do you should stop talking to me, im a waste of time, there is no reason to talk to me when youll get bored with me just like everyone elce...just let me dissapear into the air, act like im not there act like you cant see me, then in the end ...........ill finally gone

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 04:27:01 GMT

im sick im bored

1. Name: Steven
2. Do you like it?: not steve, but steven is cool
3. Nick-names: ps2
4. Screen names: timeinadarkhole
5. Age: 16
6. Birthday: 9/16
7. Sign: um....???
8. Location: Elk Grove
10. Status: All alone
11. Crush: not right now
12. Virgin?: um...no
13. Natural hair color: brown
14. Current hair color: black
15. Eye color: brown
16. Height: 6'11''
17. Weight: 205
18. Birthplace: Chicago
19. Shoe size: 14

FAMILY:
1. Parents: mike, kathy
2. Siblings: laura
3. Live with: all of them
4. Favorite relatives: dont have any
5. Least favorite: can't decide. ha

FAVORITES:
1. Number: 4
2. Colour: purple
3. Day: Saturday
4. Month: july
6. Movie: Mallrats
8. Band: TBS
9. Sport: um...dont know
10. Class: gym
11. Teacher: mr. Theile
12. Drink: water
13. Veggie: hate
14. tv station: MTVs or VH1s or Cartoon channels
15. Radio station: q101
16. Store: astro city (were i work)
17. Expression: I don't know
18. Animal: monkey
19. Flower: I don't care

PICK ONE
1. Me or you: you
2. Coke or pepsi: Coke
3. Day or night: night
4. AOL or AIM: aol
5. CD or cassette: CD
6. DVD or VHS: dvd
7. Jeans or khakis: jeans
8. Car or truck: Car
9. Tall or short: tall
10. Lunch or dinner: luner
11. *Nsync or BSB?: they should have a fight to the death
12. Gap or Old Navy: dont care
13. Lipstick or lipgloss: gloss, i guess, really dont know
14. Silver or gold: Silver
15. Alcohol or weed: Alcohol

LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Do you have a bf/gf?: Not right now
2. Do you have a crush?: kind of
3. How long have you liked him/her: not long
4. Why do you like this person?: smile
5. If you're single, why are you single?: ulgy, most people hate me :)
6. How long was your longest relationship?: 4 months
7. How long was your shortest relationship?: a week or so
8. Who was your 1st love?: Sara
9. What do you miss about them?: The sex, it was great...
10. Do you love anyone right now?: nah..

THE PAST:
1. What is the one thing you would change about your past?: would go to a different school
2. What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: Not caring
3. Last thing you heard: "whats your scientific reason for thinking that","im 12"
4. Last thing you saw: tv
5. Last thing you said: im ok "even though im not"
6. What is the last TV show you saw?: futurerama
7. What is the last song you heard?: # 5 with a bullet

WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU...
1. Saw?: mommy
2. Kissed?: sara
3. Who is the last person you hugged?: Sal or jason
4. Fought with?: summer that bitch
5. Were on the phone with?: gina

THE PRESENT:
1. What are you wearing?: boxers
2. What are you doing?: um...duh...
3. Who are you talking to?: your mom...no one
4. What song are you listening to?: nada
5. Where are you?: basement
6. Who are you with?: alone, like always
7. Are you online?: duh
8. How are you feeling?: bored and lonely
9. Are you in a chatroom?: nope

FUTURE:
1. What day is it tomorrow?: Thursday
2. What are you going to do after this?: poo
3. Who are you going to talk to?: I don't know... probably myself.
4. Where are you going to go?: bed
5. How old will you be when you graduate?: 18
6. What do you wanna be?: ???
7. What is one of your dreams?: do nothing but hang out with friends and my gf, when i get a new one
8. Where will you be in 25 years?: dont know, dont care...let life take me where it wants

OTHER:
1. Do you write in cursive or print?: print
2. Are you a lefty or a a righty? righty
3. What is your sexual preference?: women
4. What piercings do you have?: none
5. Do you drive?: everywhere
6. Do you have glasses or braces?: glass but dont wear them

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 01:21:11 GMT

i think that most kids at school dont want me around or could care less if i was there(thanks to the few of you that do) and thank god for my true friends at east lyden. im tired of putting on this happy face for people when they dont even care. im also tired of this bitching ive been doing lately so i think im going to stop undating...i think im still going to read others and comment but i think this might be my last post.

so...thanks to the few of you that care
with all my <3 and love
steve

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 00:49:41 GMT

i have all i want for Christmas but you
you the only one that cares for me
the one that that gigles when i fall down
but then helps me get up
the only person that would cry if i didnt show up
you who hits me for surprising you
but sleeps on my chest at night
all i want for christmas is your heart to be mine

so...yea
yesterday was fun...i went over to ambers house at 8 and we started to watch movies, then her bother came home with some friends and beer and the night became more fun...but then ambers little sis and bro came home...so we didnt get to drink a lot... still it was a lot of fun...
but today kind of sucked...i went out for a drive because i got bored... i got lost for an hour... that was the best part of my day...no one could do anything so i just sat around all day on the computer...my friend told me i need a girl, and i know i do, and im trying but its not as easy as it sounds when no one cares about you...